What now?

I broke my rule and made contact with her. I was going through some of the stuff, I came across her Power Rangers DVD. Gosh, that made me miss her so much. I had to ask her if she wanted it back. It was her favorite season. We talked a little and to my surprise she was going through a tough time with this as well. I didn't know she would because she thought of me as her friend rather than as her boyfriend. I do love her though and I feel it is harder for me to get over her. The only thought going through my head is how come she's going through a tough time when she doesn't love me?
I miss her and maybe we rushed the whole break up without even working it out. The only problem I had was that she doesn't love me. I don't want to force her to love me when she doesn't. Deep down I wish she has feelings for me and want to get back with me.
Sigh, now I'm selling the Katy Perry ticket. I could have gone but not without her. I would have wished her to be by my side holding my hands and that would make me miss her a lot. I thought of mailing her the DVD and the tickets but I don't want to trouble her.