A month or so after

It's been a while since the last post. I felt like I needed to write to get my thoughts out. As of late, I have been talking to her and hanging out with her a lot. Albeit, it's just as friends but it's still enjoyable. We have lunch and seem to converse fairly well. Went to the fair and oh my gosh. It was magnificent. I can't remember the last time I laughed so much and it just reminds me why I am fond of her. There's plenty of reasons to be honest. We went to the Dolly Parton concert and that was hilarious and awesome as well. I know what's going through the reader's mind at the moment. "What is going on?" We have talked about our differences and problems that we had. I liked her a lot and I wanted to give her a chance to think about us. I thought everything was going well. We can't stop talking to each other, our lives improve when we have one another and we make each other happy. Before I left for St. Louis, this is what I seemed to be getting. She said she has made her decision. Till today, I'm not sure what the decision was but I felt it was good since the both of us are happy. She wanted to make sure over the weekend that her decision is right.... however, it's fairly clear to me now how she went distant all of a sudden. I could sense a change of heart. It just somewhat shouted out. I had to initiate conversation, we couldn't converse with each other. You could tell the difference.
This continued till Wednesday. Come Wednesday, she asked "What are my thoughts of her religion?" I replied " It's a good teaching and I really like it. I would like to tell you more but it's hard via text". She said "it's our right to choose and that doesn't have to be the same" yet it followed by " I think we should be friends right now". I felt such opposite views being shot at me. Somehow I felt this was bothering her. I understand. It's important. Yet, I got somewhat reminded of the time when someone considered me a "lost soul" or when a friend made an impending judgement that I would end up in hell. However, I know she isn't like that. She's not the type to judge a person. She does want to make sure she knows what I'm thinking in the long run. I decided to open up and tell her of my experience on the good and bad of what I've exposed to. Perhaps I opened up but I didn't want to hide anything. I gave her a few views of what I think and it seemed good.
Well, despite that I still get the lack of response. I still have to initiate the conversation. I think I am done with initiating the conversation when I feel people are not interested to converse. We talked about this after the break up and it seemed like we got it fixed but I think we went back to square one where this happened. Conversations were one sided, and I seemed to be the one initiating everything. If she needs space, I'll give it to her. She said it feels weird and we don't talk. I agree but why does she become distant and make it do apparent. I don't know the answers but it's all up to her if she wants to tell me.
To be honest, she makes me happy and I think I make her happy. The world seems right when we are happy and together. I guess it's her choice and I do respect what she has chosen. I'm willing to wait till she manages to know the answers to her own questions. For how long, I'm not too sure but I'm willing for someone that makes me happy.